New Chances.

this summer went by really fast. I start network on Monday so the summer is really mostly over .. Summer went to fast, I built the bedroom that was going to be my sisters and now it is mine. I got to talk some of my friends face to face.. Being home schooled and not doing a lot of extra stuff that is like a big blessing to see people in the summer time. Oh and I love my computer my friends live in it. Got to hang with the neighborhood and got to know them all better. All in all it was a randomly surprising summer .

Wow this year is going to be crazy. It's my senior year this year and I'm doing things a bit different this year. I'm taking Speech at the network, My mom is thinking about having me do drama, and who knows what else will come up.

I'm already tired of Questions about College and not many people have asked me anything about it yet... But this Q makes me mad only because I don't really know the answer myself...

My mom is having the baby in Dec and we still don't know if it's a boy or girl or not. But the Doc thinks she might have gestational diabetes so she has some testing that needs to be done to find out about that.. She really don't like pricking her fingers. But other then that mom is doing good.

Little people are crazy, all but Mark the 2 year old. He is my angel that knows how to make you smile while your feeling down.
Random,
Faith

Music

Have you ever noticed that when just the right song is on it helps your mood?
This is something I have noticed when I'm have a hard time..
When I'm depressed I don't listen to happy music I listen to harder more sad music..
So that beggs a Question if I tried to listen to happier music more often could it help my attitude.
The answer for me is most likely a yes.

But I have to be willing to make that choice and so far I'm not so good at the choosing.
Rock is so working for me right now and I don't know if I want to listen to something different but then that could be my heart saying that I don't really want to change what is going on in my life right now.

Change is always hard for me and i can never control it but music is something i can control so I have to realize that even if I don't want to admit it I still have the same probs I did when i was 11.

I still want control and have a hard time Giving it over to God.
I still want what I want even if my mom don't agree.

will i ever grow up or am I going to be stuck in 6 year old probs for ever?
Ok well this was just a random type and hope it makes for since then i think it do
Randomness
Faith